I feel accomplished to say that today marks a sense of achievement in that I am the bigger person, shown that I am in control and now feel as though I can relax and by that I will explain further.
The teaching opportunity I grasped by both hands at the beginning of February will be coming to an end in 10 working days., this will also follow with a greatly anticipated payday. .
In the past week or week and a half I have become more aware that teaching at this level, the surroundings, the commitment is not meant for me. It is not the students nor my colleagues.I’m just not enjoying it and i need to be happy, there has been a handful of times i could have easily rolled over in bed in the mornings and gone back to bed.
The contract was initially set out to be till Easter and I will fulfil that request.
I feel that I’m letting colleagues down yet I feel a great weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I will be able to relax again and then concentrate on me. .
I mean when this job opportunity occurred I was offered another job that same week which I had to turn down. Now I will see during Easter break if the opportunity is available and consider applying, initially ensuring i a m ready for the commitment and to ensure my health and happiness are at a satisfactory level first. .
This may seem fussy and I do realise that I am lucky to have been given this teaching job without applying nor interview however I will end the job on a high in the fashion I intended it
I am glad I have trialed it. Given it a go but it is not my forte.
Whilst committing to this job I have not worked nor had the time or motivation to work on my own studies and course. Maybe that has affected my working moral, nor is the lack of wages the reason i am not enjoying it.
no one or anything has upset me to make this decision and i have done so in a way which ensures the students wont be left in a lurch with no teacher again and the work i have told them to produce will be in the making or i will have marked it!
Stepping up and admitting defeat shows signs of strength which only a strong-minded person can effectively do. So again this is another rant and not intended for reading but will now be published.
For what I want to do
- to create
- to achieve
- to design
- to complete uni work
Maybe next week I can work on finishing my website that I started in August last year.
Still some coding to do but the design is done.
Uni keeping me out of mischief. Teaching is fun. Constantly learning more about myself. Ict is just theory work. No fun stuff thus far. Ugh.
So I’m still not feeling 100%.
The doctors told me to just rest and take paracetamol often.
I skipped college on the Thursday. Attended uni on the Friday to find out I had not completed my assignment I thought I had. Had to double my word count exaggerate a lot and research way more than anticipated.
What’s this thing the doctor mentioned rest? I’m in the dark with this one!!
Few things on my mind. Getting pissed off lately. Won’t elaborate too much but communication both with friends and college is lacking and not on my part!!
Been working on the assignment all day. I’m tired. I’m feeling pissed off so I’m calling it a night /sleeptime
See you on the flip side!
Feel really ill today, cant get a doctors appointment need to ring tomorrow morning early doors, coughing like a 40 a day smoker making me feel run down.
Feels like i have just about smashed my first Teaching Uni Assignment just a few more edits and referencing to do I believe. that’s a weight off my shoulders!
Still can’t enrol because of communication to/from the loan company hopefully I can get it sorted soon.
Get to dog sit with a bundle of trouble for a week should be good fun, something to keep me on my toes!
Plan to add a project to my portfolio today, I’m feeling creative but my head may let me down, only time will tell!
Enough ranting for now – time to design 🙂
Had a roller-coaster of a week, busy days and not so busy days
Uni has got me started assignment writing – think I’m on the right road and in the right direction, need my 24+ loan info to come through so I can enrol onto both courses and make use of the library facilities; read up on books I need to read through-out this course!
Miss my best est friend, ages away till she returns from vacation feels a lot longer than it is, least she is having a relaxing fantastic time without me – ugh I hate her! no I don’t I love her to pieces!! ❤
Flu/Cold is still around, not as bad as I have been feeling
Made no plans for the weekend – Just going to chill and sleep less I get any invitations to go anywhere
Part time job hunting getting tedious – need my own transport soonish – anyone want to hire me?
Still trying to sort my bike for a better one to start getting out and about on adventures and staying active/healthy!!
Thursday Uni – not really much to say on this other than i was told to go home after 20 minutes – couldn’t do anything as cant enrol etc etc!!
Friday Uni is good – short session but met some lovely people all from different backgrounds and want different things to happen on completion of this course!!
Get to dog sit soon, looking forward to these four legged adventures.
Looking forward to my short break in a few weeks time!
Supposed to be getting a heat wave this next week then Snow within the month – will the forecasts be right? only time will tell!!