or well, it is in my eyes!!
I’m feeling great – considering
Things going smoothly
Bought a new pair of jeans on Thursday .. this is now 4 jeans sizes since August – no dieting as such just living as healthily and being as active as I can. Yes dog sitting is getting me out walking more but i need to start working on upper body now as no change their …. not enough hours in the day to do Zumba.
Uni work is going well …. has some drama every week but I’m keeping my head down and achieving what’s needed.
Was good today – said I would be going window shopping and that’s what I did. Will be purchasing some new wardrobe clothes this week. In fact – a outfit involving a dress!!
That’s new territory for me I don’t do dresses!!
I’m a jeans and tee kind of girl but yeah – this drop in weight and jeans sizes is changing me!!
Have some web designing to be done and still finish my website – buying more hours in the day please, alongside uni work too
consider yourself updated!
Lots going on in my life. Roller coaster of events some good majority bad.
Feel alone and desolated. Some days I can’t stop crying. What I would give for a hug off my mum and dad. Fortunately I know that will never happen again. Things keep reminding me of them.
Talks with friends mentioning happy family times is hard. I get a lump in my throat.
Not long till Christmas. Although I have some plans I can’t wait till it’s over. But the. Again mothers and Father’s Day will occur and these no way of me getting out of this vicious revolving circle.
I think when I find a kind caring decent man and have someone to occupy my time with things will change. However I don’t think this will happen anytime soon.
Have taken myself away from the world for a few days in an attempt to try and clear my head. No such luck however some lingering jobs I have done.
I just feel tired: fed up of waiting for my luck to change. I’m well overdue. Trying to keep positive is becoming more of a struggle. Find myself asking myself why was I put on this earth other than to care and always receive bad intentions.
I don’t want the sympathy vote. I realise life is hard. ‘Family’ to acknowledge me would be a start and to invite me and include me in social events.
This past few months I have realised that I have a few select good friends and they mean the world to me. If I didn’t have this support I don’t know where I’d be.
The tears have started again. I need to go so something to occupy myself and cheer the fuck up.
There are some good points to my life which is living alone and being very dependant. I like being able to go out on a whim and see my friends whenever and go to events.
Next year I’m hoping my mass submission of cv applications does some good and gets me a job. I think the barrier there is me caring for the past several years and not that much experience. We shall see.
Think I’ll sign off now and make some lunch! That sounds like a plan!!!
Went for a nap around tea time (4pm) n woke up at 9pm. N now I can’t sleep.
Yawning my head off just not falling asleep.
Guess that’s because I have 1001 things on my mind. Stressing stuff but I don’t feel stressed.
Something’s running me down though as I’m feeling full of cold and sore throat like. Beechams not working its magic yet.
I need plans. Stuff to look forward to in the next few days. Something positive.
Seeing my cousin from Australia this week should be a highlight of the week.
Lots of stuff to eBay tomorrow. New furniture funds needed 🙂